for good..

home-

"It’s a funny thing about coming home.
Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same.
You realize what’s changed is you."

-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

..

i've never realized how much i missed you until we start to talk again.

...

missing you is just too much.
come back and hold the future with me.

warning sign-

i am letting you go...

if only..

saya mau memejamkan mata


lalu terjaga dan terlupa akan semua

again.

why bother to hold onto someone that never makes you happy?

let go. it's not worth it.
wake up and open your eyes widely.

there's someone else who have been waiting for you patiently.

ACCEPTED!

it's official

i am going to UTRECHT and BIELLA this summer!

yabadabadoo!

declaration of dependance-

winter and spring, summer and fall
you're the wind surfer crossing
the ocean and the boat behind


imma catch their live performance next week!
i'm beyond excited!

bisa gak sih?

saya tdk mau tau apa apa lagi.

sebentar lagi mungkin isi kepala saya luber kalau saya terus dijejali.

saya tdk mau mendengar cerita apapun.

terlalu gelap dan sudah terlalu jauh saya menelusuri.

saya takut.

takut kalau saya benar.

saya tdk mau terus terseret.

saya tdk mau mengingat apapun yg saya tau.

menjauh dan kubur ceritamu dalam dalam.

saya tdk mau tau lagi.

skull at the back of your closet.

do u know what's worse than keeping a secret?
it's to know a secret without being able to ask that particular person about it.

.
my heart skips a beat every time i saw any of those hurtful signs.
and i keep on seeing signs after signs after signs.





i hate you and your big fat dark secret.




PERIOD


:(

kangen

kangen rumah deh


kangen papa sama mama


kangen tidur-tiduran di kamar mereka



kangen.

you..

those vague memories keep playing in my head





rasanya pengen jedotin kepala ke dinding




if only i could say hello to u again.

even though you're the only one i see

i wish i could watch their live performance someday

just a little bit..

Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of


but only if you a little bit in lalalalala love with me

fatigue.

saya lelah







tapi saya gak boleh nyerah
.
.
.
.
dan juga tidak boleh mengeluh
.
.
.
toh saya juga yang bakal nikmatin hasilnya

predictable

the sparks is gone







and i do nothing.

.
.

i heart my job

senin : sop buntut goreng cabe hijau

selasa : ayam goreng, nasi kastrol, sayur asem

rabu: mie goreng jawa

kamis : tahu kipas

jumat : ayam bakar jimbaran

sabtu: soto betawi


.
minggu: TIMBANGAN NAIK 2 KG




lalu senin nya pura pura amnesia sama timbangan
i love my job

Claire and Drew-

source

"You and I have a special talent and I saw it immediately. We're the substitute people. I've been the substitute person my whole life. I'm not an Ellen, I never wanted to be an Ellen. And I'm not a Cindy either. I like being alone too much. I mean, I'm with a guy who is married to his academic career. I rarely see him and I'm the substitute person there. I like it that way. It's a lot less pressure."

circle of trust

source: flickr

i have chosen my path, and you've picked yours too.
too bad, we're going to the different direction.
now, we're fading away.
i miss us, silly.


sigh.

.
.
.

je t'aime.

just take my hands
and promise me
that you will never let me go